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Name: zilkha


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Occupation: Townsend Harris HS Student
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Member Since: 2/6/2005

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Sunday, November 08, 2009

Sensuality

I did /not/ expect my boyfriend to be so attuned to sensuality. But... I like it. 


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Chamomile Tea

I'm no expert at tea, but I do appreciate a decent cup. It is very relaxing and a nice alternative to water when you don't want to consume any more calories. Since my parents have had chamomile tea in their shop, I've always loved it. They always order from Celestial Seasonings, so the chamomile tea that I'm speaking of only refers to this particular brand. It happens to be caffeine free. And additionally, the box that they newly designed is very environmentally conscience. The tea bags that they use do not use staples, or string or those little tags that lipton bags do. Now that may not seem like a lot, but it saves a lot of trees in the long run! The taste is much different from other teas. It has a certain roundness to it, and the taste is very complementary to added sugar or honey. I find myself sighing after drinking a cup. That's just how soothing it is! Compared to bitter tea (and I do mean bitter), when after drinking it, life just seems sweeter because you tasted something not necessarily awful, but takes time to appreciate. There's no caffeine in it too, unlike other teas. Another tea that I particularly like is rose tea, but I will save that for another time.

I have so much work to do, but it is nice to just stay up some times, despite being weary, and enjoy your work. Or am I just being a workaholic? See you!


Sunday, October 18, 2009

Read This When You Are Bored

I haven't done these survey thingies in a long time. =D

Deleted question 1.

2.    What have you learned from life that makes you who you are today?

Never give up looking for something.
3.    What are your plans (goals) for the future?

Er, get a job! Become a doctor and help people and pass on my knowledge to others. That kind of thing.

4.    If I had an accident and be left with terrible scars for life, would you still love me?

Yes, I would.

5.    What is it of me that you like the most?

Skipped because it was too difficult to explain.

6.    How do you remember your “first love”?

I wronged him.
7.    After me, who is your closest male friend?

Wait, what? I guess it would be Kevin.

8.    How do you remember my first impression?

He had awesome hair. SAT II Biology. xD

9.    Would you leave me for a celebrity that really really liked you?

No. Not interested in fame or power.

Deleted question ten.

11.    Do you still have feelings for an ex?

No.

12.    What is your best kept intimate secret?

Well if it was best kept then I wouldn't be keeping it very well if I said it right?

13.    How do you visualize the perfect man? What are his attributes?

He would be absolutely trustworthy and would love their significant other more than their significant other loved them. That, and very sexy shoulders. LOL

Deleted question 14.

15.    How would you react if I was dating another woman?

Pretty upset, but it depends where we are right now.


16.    At what age do you plan to get married?

After college and before 30.

17.    What is it that you don’t like about me?

That I don't get to see you very often.

18.    What would be your best reason to break up with me?

Ouch. I don't want to answer. I'm too optimistic.

19.    How would you react if the doctor told me that I have a deadly disease? Would you still love me?

Of course!

20.    If I had to move far away for many years, would you wait for me?

Of course I would. Even if you were drafted for the army.

21.    If we had a child born with health problems, how would you handle the situation?

My cousin has health problems. Just because they were born less fortunately, doesn't mean that they can't live happy lives. I would love them just as much as if they were healthy. And /never/ would I feel unlucky or ungrateful.

22.    What are your financial goals for the future?

To be able to afford the house I am living in right now. That's good enough for me. =)

23.    How and when would you know if I am the right one?

I don't know, but I am ready to believe. I guess time is the true test.

24.    Do you believe in God? Why?

No. I believe in the goddess in myself. That and Buddhism's philosophical principles.

25.    Have you ever had the feeling you were being watched?

Yes -shivers-.
26.    So, do you really think we evolved from apes? Seriously?

Of course. What do you think? Fish?
27.    What would you do if you were the last person on this earth?

Probably die. I don't know how to take care of myself.

Deleted question 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34.


35.    Do you rather follow your heart (that does not think) or your head (that does think)?

I would rather follow my heart. I try my best to align my heart with my head. That's the best combination. =)

Deleted question 36.

37.    Do you think the past matters in a relationship?

Let's be realistic. It does. Who you are is a set of genetics and also the environment that you grew up in. So the past does matter.

Deleted 38, 39, 40.


41.    Do you agree with: were there was fire, ashes remain?

Well duh. Fire needs something to burn? o_o


Awake Early

Okay, so I woke up at 6 today because my friend called about the Breast Cancer Walk. Our freshies and some seniors might be attending, and she's worried that they might get lost or something. So here I am doing some work, waiting for her or them to call.

I'm really sad (I read from somewhere that if you stay true to your feelings and understand why, you're emotions won't get the best of you). We might not meet today, and even if we do, it'll only be for one or two hours. I can wait, but I can't do it enthusiastically. That's beyond me. I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him... I should stop. I sound like a stalker. I really need those two hours, that one hour, that half an hour.. It kills me to remind him that he has to leave. But what can I do? I can't not miss him and I can't keep my mind from wandering to him when he's not around. At the same time, I'd rather feel the loneliness of being apart then going back to fooling myself that I could live without it.

I have to get back to work, or whatever it is I was doing. So much work.


Saturday, October 17, 2009

Tired

Hello guys! Thank goodness they have premade layouts. I like this one. And besides, although I liked the previous one, it was really difficult to read and the text didn't have any capital letters. So here it is! Change is good in this case.

I'm so tired today. Hehe. xD Nothing new, right? Today at 12:30PM, I arrived at Forest Park for the Light the Night Walk. I stayed till 7:00 PM. My Red Cross Club was responsible for helping teams that collected more than $1000 in funds to make a banner for their walk. Although it was fun, it kind of rained, and we didn't have a tent, so the banners were getting wet and everything. But it was still fun, because since there were so many members, half the time we were playing silly games like Blob Tag and Red Rover. xD We even had time to go to Trader Joes and Michael's! But a VP's got to do what a VP's got to do, and that is to take attendance and get everything rolling along. So I get it rolling along.

I mean these past few weeks, my academics have really been taking a lot of time. Each AP class requires much attention, and on top of that I have to take care of this club and yada yada yada... Sometimes I think I would be happier with less responsibilities, but I know that I won't be happy if I didn't do anything either. I love helping people and being of service to others. It makes life fulfilling, I think. ^^

Well, just for fun, lets talk about some other hobby that I thought I had. xD That's cosmetics. I think this year I was really interested in it. I really admire people who take time for themselves to look more beautiful. But on the other hand, I don't feel comfortable when I put a lot of makeup on. I love the big ulzzang eyes, but I'm afraid of those contact lenses, and also putting on fake eyelashes. And yikes, those eyes are extremely huge looking. I think I'm just that mascara and chap stick kind of girl. xD That's fine with me~.




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